drowning_inair

meh

2007-12-23T00:52:27Z

Bleck.

Im natious.

[EDIT:
Nauseous*
SO there]

all ears.

2007-11-13T22:06:39Z

Some day.

When i speak.

People will listen.

familia

2007-11-06T22:42:59Z

i miss my family.

i wish we all lived in one state.

what ev.

i need to do something.
like out of the norm.
im bored with my life.

brrr.

I love music.

2007-04-29T19:47:28Z

SO i went to see DevilDriver last night with Jason and Michael.

It was pretty awesome.

I had fun.

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My hand hurts, i think i may have done something to it.
I need to stop punching things.

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Beavers are awesome!

There is a family of them living at this lake where MIchael and Jason went fishing and now i like to visit them every once in a while.

So we go there today and there are two guys going around with sticks like poking at their den and such. That angers me. Why can't people just leave things alone?

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I miss my dad.

humph.

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Okay that concludes dorothy-anne's random thoughts for the day.

addios.

Acceptance.

2007-03-05T22:48:06Z

SO i realized that sometimes, no matter how much you do not want to, and no matter how much you hate to. You just have to accept things.

Now, some things i would like to change, and some things would make my life better, but sometimes you can't change those things.

So, i decided that the next step of making me a better and more understanding person, is to just accept things.

Hey, it might ruin me in the end, but it also might save me from myself, and all of the stress that i feel because of my own worrying.

...Gah, I hate accepting things.

On a different note, I am glad it's March, i miss spring.

I love those huge trees with the white and pink flowers on them, they are sooo cool. I can't wait for them to bloom.

Quote:

Sister Dana "What kind of animals are elephants?"
Theodore (4 yrs.) "The REALLY BIG kind"

.Oh the times.

2007-01-18T20:21:53Z

Sooo, today is Michael's 22nd birthday

Happy birthday Michael!!

And it is also our one year anniversary.

Craazy right?

One entire year.... nuts.

drowning_inair @ 2006-12-28T23:06:00

2006-12-29T04:07:09Z

I really just do not know.

I hate this.

I melt for you.

2006-12-10T00:47:09Z

I have a secret.

Shhhh, don't tell anyone.

:-)

drowning_inair @ 2006-11-26T22:07:00

2006-11-27T03:07:37Z

I hate waiting.

Seriously.

No returns.

2006-11-16T03:58:14Z

Only commit when you know it will be worth it.

If there is no value in a commitment. Don't do it.

The world.

2006-11-09T02:53:20Z

I feel like a sheep dog.

I need a hair cut.

Actions speak louder then words.

2006-09-30T18:05:33Z

I might be crazy.

But I'm not sure about all of this.

Hopefully, it will be okay.

I'm additcted.

2006-09-25T02:48:57Z

I want flowers.

They are pretty.

Love is overpowering.

2006-08-25T16:13:04Z

Sometimes I'm Hot!!

Sometimes I'm Cold!!

Sometimes I wanna run around the block at a fast rate screaming "I love turtles!!"

Sometimes I wanna break glasses on your face.

Today i am goin to get a new library card. Ohhhhhhhhhh yeahhhhhhh.

you'll be makin history like you do.

2006-08-15T16:57:06Z

Throw yah hands up and SHOUT!!

That should never happen again.

2006-08-07T03:48:47Z

So today was Jen and Calebs wedding. I got there just in time. It was an awesome wedding.

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I hope they stay happy forever.

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So I am at Dizzle's. He helped me with Geo. Thank you Dizzle.

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I don't feel well, at all. Throat/head/stuffy nose/fever = gay.

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I hate fights. All kinds of fights. Yeah, ya know.

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I also can't stand people who can talk about people, but as soon as someone talks about them as hell breaks lose. Control your ridiculous tempers!!

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I want to go to the beach. Let us go to the beach michael, and stay there. For like a week.

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It is really nice out. I wish someone would go for a walk with me, but i think Mess and Dizzle are snoozin.

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I apologize, when i get stressed and upset, i get extra sensitive. yeahh

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I am so freakin random and never make any rhyme or reason. I can't stand it. I wish i wrote those awesome insightful posts. But no.

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I am so done here.

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P.S Lexie is the cutest girl in the universe.

You're the sleeping beauty.

2006-07-19T16:43:19Z

Samantha Sabbat Rest In Peace.

You were cool as hell, and everyone will always remember that.

siiigh.

Lets run away.

2006-06-30T01:18:53Z

SO today started off pretty okay. I went to columbus market with Mess and her sister.

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Then I came home, and wanted to leave 2 seconds after being here. I just had a bad middle of they day, things were just no working out for me, then i had a fucking mental breakdown and got really pissed off out of nowhere. I think i need help. Hmm.

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But then i played guitar hero and that was the most fun i have had with a playstation in a very long time. I felt better.

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Had my older brothers birthday dinner (he turns 22 tomorrow), and i hung out with charlie. Ate cake. YUUUM.

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I got my summer school books today. I hope i can get my diploma like planned. It looks iffy to me.

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oh crap....its 9:09. I'll be back.

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Okay im back.

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I need a job. Real bad, i have to pay off my mom, I have to get my license, and then a car, In between all of that i want something pierced. I am not sure yet what. But i know i want something done. But most of all i want to be able to take Mess out to eat for a change, thank you for all the taco bell and coffee coolatas :-) I also want to be able to take Michael out to dinner and ice cream for a change. It is really getting to me not having any money. It sucks. I need a job and a ride to get there.

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I should paint my nails, and toe nails.

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My phone sucks, i need to re-duct tape it. siigh.

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What do i want to go to college for? I have ideas, but none of them really appeal to me anymore.

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I'm sleepy.

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I think i am going to go do that artsy stuff i do and make a masterpiece haha riiight.

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Advice for the day:
If you have beef with someone, talk to them on person or straight to their face.

Quote of the day:
"Sarcasm helps keep you from telling people what you really think of them."- Unknown

I dont think you even read this anymore.

2006-06-15T02:48:15Z

Not much to say.

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But yet i have so much to say, I'm just not prepared to say it.

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You know how you have all these feelings, and you want to let them out. You just can't, its that simple, because if you do there are consnquences for your feelings. There shouldnt be any, but there are.

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Sometimes just keeping them to yourself is easier.

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Oh well. I'm done here.

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No quote.

Fried chicken and hot dogs. Not a great pair.

2006-06-05T04:48:53Z

SO i should be asleep right now. I have to wake up at like 7 tomorrow to be ready at 8 for six flags. :-) Melissa, Chrystal, Mrs Bahnsen and I are splitting 500 bucks to just blow at six flags because it is all the extra money that we had in the AE21 fund. It should be mad fun. I'm pretty much looking forward to it.

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Another one of my fish died :-(. I suck, i deem myself a fish killer. I am a Murderer!!!!

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So today i got alot of work done with my humanities teacher i got about 12 or so assignments done in just two days and they were pretty big assignments too.

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Hopefully I will be able to get the money and send in the check for summer school by tuesday. I need to start now or I wont have time to finish. My deadline is august 1st the minimum of the course takes 5 weeks.

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Sometimes i really hate the phone, i work off of a lot of facial expressions and it is just so much easier for me to talk to someone that is sitting next to me, if not, I get frustrated and shut down. There for arguments come about, and confusion sets in. Bah whatever.

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So Chrystal graduated last night. Go Chrystal!!!! I am so happy for her.

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It about time i hang out with the guys, i am due for a date with Max, Curtiss, Big Matt, and Dan the Dino. I should call em up. We should....jam. yeah.

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I miss my G-ma. I wanna visit her.

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Advice for the day:
When you are in an excillent mood, dont let anyone bring you down.

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Quote for the day:
"Read, every day, something no one else is reading. Think, every day, something no one else is thinking. Do, every day, something no one else would be silly enough to do. It is bad for the mind to continually be part of unanimity."
-Christopher Morley

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i am going to try and get rid of this insomnia and sleep now.
Goodnight y'all

....The candles were the best.

2006-05-18T15:51:07Z

Hey you alllll

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So whats been going on with me?

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1) I will not be marching for graduation, it sucks like a lot . I may even cry when i see chrystal up there and not me. But i will be getting my diploma. Hopefully through this thing called american school. It is a correspondence school. I am going to borrow money from my dad to do it.

2) On the hunt for a job. I am in the process of filling out tons of applications. and since i am borrowing money from faja that means i need a job.

3) One of my fish died, then we called petsmart to see if i could get a new one. I got a new one. I was the algae eater. The new one i got is mad ugly, so i named him ugly or revolting or dreadfull, or repulsive or anything of that nature. I call him Fugly. But he ugly in a cute way. ::EDIT:: the fish's new name is death, ya know why cuz he died. psh stupid fish :-( ::END EDIT::

4) I still havnt named the other fish.

5) I want to move out. Like now, but it takes a lot to move out. I know. I am pretty much just concerned about getting my diploma at the moment.

6)I missed the class party at school today :-(

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anyways, thats whats up.

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My thought of the day:
I have been thinking a lot lately and i dont get how something can be so wonderful then go down hill so quickly then back up again just as fast. I mean, i guess something bad always comes out of something good. In this case when the bad came out it made the good all the gooder. Haha yeahhh

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Quote of the day:
"If you love somebody, set them free. If they return, they were always yours. If they don't, they never were."
-Anonymous.

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I need a new phone.

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The end.

gonna see this with and open mind.

2006-05-10T22:27:43Z

Mess got me fish!! In a little fish bowl :-)

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Three of them

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One tiny little itty bitty algea eater.

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An two fancy guppies they are bright orange.

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I love them!!

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I still need to name them

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Gimmie names guys.

....appreciate, please.

2006-05-05T18:28:34Z

Friday, today i have realized how much i need a license and a car. Okay, here are all the places i need a ride to just this weekend. I need a ride to Youth Group, back home or somewhere from Youth Group. I need a ride to church, and back home from church. I need a ride to the show and back home from the show. Sunday, psh who knows where i will need a ride to on sunday. I sucks, i feel like helpless and i hate depening on other people for things because everytime you depend on some one else, you get let down. Not only that i am freakin 18 and people dont wanna drive around an 18 year old who should already have thier shit together. But yeah thats my rant for friday.

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So, whats on my mind? There is a lot flouting around in my head. I am just hoping and praying i graduate. I have been working super hard to try and get through this.

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On the bright side, it is soooo nice out. I should get the hell off this computer and go for a run. I would prolly feel better after i did.

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There is so much i want to write on here, but i cant. Actually i could if i wanted to but im not going to.

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Quote of the day: "Getters generally don't get happiness; givers get it. You simply give to others a bit of yourself - a thoughtful act, a helpful idea, a word of appreciation, a lift over a rough spot, a sense of understanding, a timely suggestion. You take something out of your mind, garnished in kindness out of your heart, and put it into the other fellow's mind and heart."- Charles H. Burr

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suggestion of the day: Go outside.

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I need to see the bulotovich's

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I miss Tommy, ever since Sunday i have been thinking about him a lot. Bah.

....Still here.

2006-04-27T17:30:33Z

Well today is an A-Okay day

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Only went to school for an hour

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Took half of a xanax and now my stomach is finally feeling okay.

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Waiting for curtiss to come pick me up to chill for a while :-)

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And Mess just went to go pick up Alishia so i get to see her today too.

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And, i just feel good. Like finally a breath of fresh air. Know what i mean?

or maybe im just crazy, either way today is a good day.

Please dont give me false hope. You do deserve me.

2006-04-23T13:59:59Z

I am at dizzles house. It nice here, so welcoming and homey. I don't know what i would do if i had nowhere to go, or if i had no friends.I would be lost. Thank you guys.

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This weekend, was/is a rough one. I just wish that you could feel the way you wanted to feel whenever you wanted to feel that way. Did that make sense? i hope so.

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Our plans for the day include letting penelope and mamosa (the cool fish me mess and dizzle caught at vets) free. they need to be free cuz they are all beasty and big and scare the other fish in the tank.

Then home depot to get more bafu weapon stuff for dizzle.

Then i dunno what

Then prolly jackies to help her organize her stuff cuz she is finally moving into her own place. so if alishia or amanda reads this before its too late since you guys are close to jackies house you guys could come over if you want, or maybe i will just give you guys a call.

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i dont feel good, bleh. i cant eat. sucks.

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I think i need to get away, maybe after i graduate....if i graduate i will go to my aunts house in florida and chill with cousins for a week or two, that would be nice. Even though i would like to do that right now. Like now. I wish i could just fly to california or something and stay with my aunt. but i cat oh well.

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I am trying so hard to accept. I really am, i am trying not to be mad but it is so hard. I understand, i really do. it just sucks, and i know you know that. I really dont think you know the amount of suckyness there is though. I really just want you to be okay, and happy.

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anyways, i think im done here, i realy didnt say anything, but i felt the need to update.

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bye guys.

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I wanna be there for you
Someone you can come to
Runs deeper than my bones
I wanna be there for you
I wanna be there for you